Pat and Carol

October 26, 2010

[I thought I would take a break from my Darfur diaries and bring you a proper review for a change. I’ve read a few novels so far during my time away – Daddy’s Girl by Margie Orford, The Lost Boy by Aher Arop Bol, The Coroner’s Lunch and Disco for the Departed by Colin Cotteril. But it’s Carol by Patricia Highsmith that I want to talk about, and I think you’ll soon see why.]

Patricia Highsmith is best known for her crime fiction and the Ripley series in particular. Carol, by contrast, is a romance involving two women. Originally published in 1952 under a pseudonym as The Price of Salt, the novel developed from a real incident that happened when Highsmith was 27 years old and working as a temp at the toy department of Bloomingdales. A beautiful woman, early 30s, walked in to buy a toy for her daughter, Highsmith was totally smitten and even tracked her down to her house in New Jersey (where she watched her to get more detail for her novel). That’s where the incident ends and where Highsmith’s imagination (and probably life experience) takes over.

In the novel, Therese Belivet is a 19-year old aspiring set designer who takes a temporary job at the toy department of an upmarket New York department store. There she meets Carol, a beautiful 30-something woman in the midst of a difficult divorce who has come to buy her daughter a Christmas present. As Val McDermid says in the Foreword:

“There’s an instant spark of attraction between them but neither knows quite how to react. They’re drawn to each other, trying for friendship, but unable to resist the deeper attraction. Their flirtation with danger and desire makes for almost unbearable tension.

To take her mind off her enforced separation from her daughter, Carol persuades Therese into a road trip, where they eventually become lovers with a flourish of understated eroticism. What they don’t know is that a private investigator unleashed by Carol’s husband is hot on their heels. And of course, the revelation of their secret contains the seeds of its destruction. As in the best of thrillers, it seems as if everything worth having is lost forever.”

After a slow start, I was soon hooked by the narrative and by the end I had to stay up late to find out just how Highsmith got to her apparently happy ending. I found it a really good novel – simple and yet complex, engaging, emotionally intense but also accessible. As McDermid comments, it has the drive of a thriller and the imagery of a romance. After I’d finished, there was the added pleasure of finding out more about Highsmith’s life from various book reviews and speculating to what extent the experiences in the book mirrored her own life.

There’s something naive about Therese, who grew up essentially as an orphan even though her mother is still alive. Therese lives most of the time in her imagination and as she and Carol embark on their road trip, it’s painful to see how vulnerable and anxious Therese is as she’s driven by this overwhelming yearning for her new friend. When Therese idealises Carol and falls head over heels in love with her, Carol is by turns loving, controlling and almost sadistic as she tries to get Therese to relate to her as she really is and not as Therese imagines her to be.

Then there’s Richard, Therese’s fiancé who doesn’t really appear to love Therese at all. When he realises that he’s losing her to Carol he writes a series of letters in which he tries to convince himself that Therese will get over this adolescent crush on another woman and come back to him. But, as Therese says, when they’re together there’s this impenetrable barrier between them. It’s as if there is a block of wood in the air between them and Richard is unable to appreciate what it is that Therese is experiencing while she in turn is tortured by shame when she is with him at her attraction to Carol .

I was looking for a paragraph that shows the love that Therese feels towards Carol but skimming through it again now, I see that much of the time what Therese is feeling is anxiety. Carol is controlling, her moods change quite abruptly and yet Therese is so desperate for recognition, acceptance, belonging, love.

One of the reviewers comments that Carol is “full of tremor and threat and of her [Highsmith’s] peculiar genius for anxiety”. Perhaps that connects up to what Highsmith’s biographer, Joan Schenkar, says when she describes Highsmith as our “most Freudian of novelists”. Apart from the obvious dark side of human nature which Highsmith mines with great skill in her Ripley novels, it’s the riddle of anxiety, which as Freud says, casts “a flood of light upon our whole mental life”. You don’t have to be a psychologist to see that Carol represents a mother-figure to Therese but it’s fascinating (to me anyway) to consider Therese’s feelings in the light of psychology and to see how her challenge in growing up is to move from seeing Carol as an all-good mother-figure to a real person with her own feelings and insecurities.

I’m sure that the Schenkar biography will be very interesting but I’m not sure that I want to read that much more of Highsmith’s life. I really didn’t enjoy the movie of The Talented Mr Ripley and I prefer my crime fiction to have some sort of moral compass. From what I’ve read of Highmsith’s life so far, I feel sad that so much of her energy seemed to be channelled into meanness, cruelty and deception whereas the loving feelings which find expression in Carol, had to be, as Winterson put it, hidden in plain sight. But then we also have to remember that being gay in 1950 was considered either a moral abomination or a form of insanity. There’s a whole thesis to be written about writing and cruelty and I’m sure that Highsmith’s life will provide plenty of material there. Perhaps there’s something about writers needing to be in control.

I can’t post any links right now but it’s worth checking out Jeanette Winterson’s review of The Talented Miss Highsmith over at the New York Times, Pat Cohen’s article in the same publication and Michael Dirda’s review of the Ripley novels at the New York Review of Books.


Darfur Day 2: Hot as Hell

October 19, 2010

Just checking in to say that I made it to Darfur and while the Internet here is painfully slow, I’m delighted that I can still email and blog (although not use Facebook).

So what to tell you? Firstly, it is hot as hell, even in winter. And this internet room smells like a soldier’s locker-room. At first I thought it was the guy sitting next to me and then I thought it might be me but now I think the room may have absorbed the odours of countless sweaty soldiers over the years. Or perhaps it really is the guy sitting next to me.

It’s too hot to provide much by way of details but I’ll try. I arrived on Monday after a marathon journey from Bloemfontein. The endless weigh-in (each of us was allowed 45kgs) saw me throwing food away to make it under the limit. Then the long wait at Johannesburg international. The long, cramped flight on Air Jordan. Land at El Fasher airport which has a strip of tar, a few buildings and several UN helicopters. We’re met by the big Colonel.

“Today is going to be difficult,” he says. “It will be very hot and some of you will be here until 8pm. Please be patient.”

We’re given a bottle of UN water and we buy some Pepsi. Off to the UNAMID (UN and African Union Mission in Darfur) headquarters in El Fasher to get our UN IDs. Scramble to get on the first helicopter to Kutum. I generally hate flying but this is scary and fun at the same time. The Russians flying the helicopter are very serious (and thorough). It doesn’t help that I watched Black Hawk Down the other day. I’m scared of crashing but reassure myself that it’s very unlikely. We fly over a brown, dusty landscape dotted here and there with homesteads, some hills, some greenery and a lot of sand. The sand seems to shimmer in the heat.

When we land I want to say Nostorovya to the Russians but they might take it as an insult. I’m already thinking of the Cold War and James Bond. On our descent I catch sight of some rebels, armed and dangerous-looking on the back of a small truck. We touch down and they’re nowhere to be seen. Instead we’re greeted by SA soldiers with their R4 rifles, flak jackets and steel helmets. And big smiles. They’re happy to see us. I’m happy to see friendly faces and to be safely on the ground again. I realise that we are really here.

On the way to the base, I realise how rural this place is. This is probably the most rural place I’ve ever been in. I taught for two years at a black private school in what was then the Northern Province of SA and that was pretty backward. As soon as you turned off the main road and the secondary road you were into dongas. The supermarket has a guy with a shotgun standing outside for protection. Here the women ride donkeys and the guys sit under trees. The base itself is unlike anything I’ve ever seen. It’s over-crowded (built for 200, currently catering for 800). Lots of tents, makeshift buildings, sand and rocks, generators, overhead wires, big satellite dishes, stray dogs, goats, local women working as cleaners. The smell of dirty water. Bored soldiers. Different nationalities. The hum of air conditioning. Watch towers. Piles of sand bags. Ammunition casing. Faces friendly and foreign. The sound of arabic over loudspeakers from the village.

The psychologist who I’m replacing has been very helpful and I think that two months here will definitely be do-able. I’ll check in again when I manage to upload a few pictures. By the way, this is my 200th post. (Happy bloggiversary to me!) Hard to believe it’s been that long since my first post here from my first military base. Thanks for all the comments and friendship since then! Chat soon.


Day 22: More pics

October 11, 2010

At the Hobbit Boutique hotel

Day 22 here and while I’ve been thinking a lot about possible posts, the reality of camp life here is such that it’s actually very difficult to blog. One of my colleagues is watching Spartacus about two metres away and so you may get a whiff of blood and sand in this post instead of anything else that I want to say.

The pic above is the hotel where L and I stayed two weekends ago. It was a lovely (albeit short) weekend. The hotel is named in honour of one of Bloemfontein’s most well-known sons, JRR Tolkien. Well, not named after him exactly but you know what I mean. We stayed in Legolas the elf’s room and the decorators managed to make the room feel old and light at the same time. A hobbit or an elf would have felt right at home (and I’ll leave you to decide which of L and I would be the hobbit and which the elf).

Even the mess looks pretty good in the right light. You’ll have to imagine gristly meat and the occasional rat pack with some stodgy porridge thrown in for good measure.

Some old crocs near the base

Dad, mom and three of the seven chicks

I don’t think the ostriches would have taken too kindly to Grad’s suggestion to scramble their young ones for an omelette! This was as close as I could get.

I’ll leave it there for this week. Thanks for reading and think of me on Wednesday when I fly out to Sudan on the first flight. Hopefully I’ll be able to check in from that side and I won’t have my ears assaulted with so many violent movies, hours of gospel music on a Sunday (eh, eh, Jesu, hallelujah) and all the other boarding school horrors of sharing a tent with eight other men. I think I did well to survive this far without any violence whatsoever. I’ve managed to pick up a chronic sore throat in the process (don’t even mention antibiotics – I don’t think modern medicine has reached these parts yet) but maybe that’s all part of the process, right?

And sorry I haven’t been round to read the usual blogs (and any unusual ones too). I’ll make it up when I get back.


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